Holidays and birthdays are extremely hard and emotional during a deployment, but missed milestones are the hardest.
Last week, Tucker started kindergarten in public school. It was a “first” that Chris will never get to experience. I cannot express my sadness in knowing that we will never get that day back.
When we walked to Tucker’s classroom, he stopped right before going in the door, looked up at me with his huge brown eyes and said… “Mama, I’m shaking on the inside.”
I know what he meant….I’ve been shaking on the inside since January.